18 August 2007

Life Inside

Excerpt from my journal, 10 June 2007, 12:18 am

Volunteers are coming tomorrow (today actually). I'm really, really nervous, I'd say. But excited. And encouraged.

We watched The Guardian tonight, and while it was too intense to be relaxing, it was really good and made me think.

I want a job like that. Not an actual cost guard job, but something just as powerful. Something so a part of me that I am defined by it and by me it is defined. I do not want to be ashamed if someone were to address me as "the one who works for this" or "does this." It will be mine and it will be me and I will be it. Of course, I don't know what this job is yet. And I do want a life outside my job. But I want there to be life inside my job, too. So much life that it hurts to retire. Then I will know I have earned old age.

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The reason I am resorting to excerpts is that I want to tell y'all my thoughts from my summer away from blogging, and because not much worth noting really happened today.

Also, Christine said "Um, I love this song. Listen to it, 'tis worth it." She was right. Aerosmith's "What It Takes" is proof that even rock stars can be a little emo.


1 comment:

mb said...

I have a task list for you in regards to your blogger.

1) Fix the capitalization in your title. Maybe you don't mean God as a proper noun, but it's still the first word in a sentence. Also, it is a title and therefore most of the other words should also be capitalized.

2) Update your profile. Flesh it out a bit, make it so people with similar interests can find you.